About His Death

One week prior to his death, Patrick had told me that he was suffering from Anxiety and he was having Panic Attacks, he said he could feel his own heart beating in his chest and he was scared. I told him to come up to my house and stay here for a little while, not realizing the seriousness of what he had just told me because Patrick had been suffering from Depression for a while. I found out too late that I should have called 911 that night instead of inviting him up to my house but I didn't know but I know now and this is why I am sharing this with you, in hopes that if you are ever in a similar situation, you will recognize the signs.


I will never forget the morning Patrick was found dead outside my home, the sound of my neighbors voice echoing up the stairway to my room, alerting me that Patrick had a vacuum hose running from the exhaust pipe to the window of his Jeep or the look on his face when he had to tell me that my friend was gone. For the rest of my life I will remember the trip to the coroners office to pick up Patrick's belongings that were in his vehicle at his time of death, the smell of Carbon Monoxide (exhaust) that still lingered on his things, the 2 inches of water that filled containers that were in his vehicle, the water being from the condensation inside the car, the description from my neighbor who opened the door of Patrick's car that morning and turned off the engine, he speaks of the drops of water falling from above Patrick, and how the entire interior of the vehicle was saturated. These things will forever be inside my head and the pain will be with me forever because there is no way to stop it because I cannot bring Patrick back no matter how I wish for that to happen. 


Studies show that DEPRESSION alone carries it's own risk factors for suicide but add to this ANXIETY and/or PANIC DISORDER and the risk rises dramatically.  
Follow these links for more information on Depression, Anxiety and Panic Disorder.
www.healthyplace.com/communiti… 
www.healthcentral.com/anxiety/…
www.freeessays.cc/db/39/pnl68.…

If you are depressed you need to be aware of these additional disorders, read about it, know about it and know that you can get help, this can be treated just like anything else, Suicide is not the solution, though it may seem like the only way, it is not, doctors can make the pain go away but you have to take that first step, ask for help.